Not enough

When I get in UCH-FEN, I had the terrible felling that I was nonthing. When I first met Preu Fen, I thought "may be this is my chance to be something else than a simple person who wants almost save the world". I took that chance and I made it: I was a support for some one. Some one who may be now, after 7 years, don´t even remember my name, but that´s no matter, because in that time, for a little second, I was something in that student life. But now I have the same feeling. I feel I´m nonthing, and even if I know that I have a lot of potential, I thing that no one look at me like that. I started to think that I´m just a thing. An ugly thing but with a lot of potential that sometimes people use and then just forget. It happen with friends (or persons that I though they were friend), it happen in my family, and now, it happen in the first company that I felt really happy in. I know I´m not trash, but I feel like it, because when you make mistakes, that is what you became, even if you had your moment of talent. A mistake, a few mistakes, can do that your effort became in shit and I´m sick of it. So I made the thing that I better do: write it, and sepult it. I don´t know what is going to happen in a few hours or days, but I do know one thing: I´m a person who was born to give an recibe love. Everything that I do, is with love, and if I made a mistake it was not love less, it was just a mistake because I´m a human person, and maybe that is the worse thing, because if Iwere a thing, a machine, I could erase everything and move on. But I can´t, because everything that I do have a piece of me. So when I left a place or a person I feel empty. And that is the worse feeling in the world. Because that make you a thing.